Blue,blue purplish waves that spin into a perpetual wave of intensity,
Insanity of gazes that shoot through phases of apathetic crazes that is,
Is whatever we mean for it to be, mean for it to see, hiding yet to seek,
Heaven, clouds, infinity beyond, buzzing along light years of childhood, what fun,
As those who past adulthood clutch to childlike wanderings, discerning majesty beneath,
The sky the top of heap, forever raising arms and yet forever out of reach
I used to be people centric to the max, now that I have switched to being me centric I find that I am on occasion sick of myself lol. Not in a negative way but I do like to let go and relax everynow and then. Im one of those people who feels bad if I am not working and puts an incredible amount of stress on myself to do the best I can. This is a blessing and a curse (as every personality trait) blessing in that I always accomplish what I set out to do and I eliminate obstacles in my life. Curse in the sense that I work to hard and burn out and get exhausted. Those are always the realest times in my life, where I learn the most about myself. In times of emotional turmoil truth comes alive.I love reality but change is always hard especially the more you do for yourself you begin to see what you will not allow yourself to settle for. Many of us settle for less and live unfufilled lives yet we cling to other empty shells out of fear. Few of us buck the trend think for ourselves and live by what we believe is right. The few that do this are always stable but there still is that bittersweetness of finding like minded people and coming up short. Oh well never give up 🙂
How many times does the past try to rear it’s ugly head? I have found out that when I am doing well in life all the dead weight I cut off tries to wash up on shore of the now. Old associations can bring you down if they never were good people to start with. Always fear returning back to the past. It’s hard when you have current friends who don’t see how people are but in time they are no longer blinded by others influence as they choose what’s right for what they know. Just make sure you don’t let the past affect you, as soon as it does it’s time to let go again. Always make good choices.
Who is it that can sing a song that flies above a stream,
Gliding past the juveniles whilst plucking at heart’s strings,
They could be in moments when you contemplate what’s last,
They could be in leaving back the issues from our past,
That truth that life, that inner fight, that breaths and respirates,
Hear it is let’s jubilate when talking to a great
Poem by Mardaweh Tompo
Doing what is right is not the most highly regarded option amongst many. People have always been avoidant to change even if would be fair and positive, all because it wasn’t what the people they aspired to are doing. Dumming ourselves down, being small minded while preaching tolerance is favored. If you care about something you are an outlier. If you stand up for yourself you are “not accepting”. I find that most of us lack a thorough understanding of what it means to judge a person. Telling someone about themselves is not judgement it’s honesty. Condemning someone to death, or placing people on pedastals or in categories is also judgement. Judgement is superficial and doesn’t take into account the truth of an individual. Today too many people aren’t making rational choices from every race,religion, gender,sexuality, personality,nationality because they are too busy complaining about some who “isn’t them”. If we all are victims than where is the sense of personal responsibility. Conflict inherently leads to compromise, but only if the conflict is over ideas not superficiality. I think we should all just get real. In getting real with yourself you might have less friends, less yes men, and less judgement inside. You might even be able to open up and see this world is made of people who are as diverse and varied as anything on earth and fight for that truth. In this fight that is what really leads to change. Not standing behind the truths of others who dont even know themselves. But what do I know, these are just some musings 🙂
No matter the “odds”, or statistics we all face hurdles in life. If we don’t risk nothing is ever gained. Now risk is different from reckless behavior. Risk is a narrow path that guides one to where they want to be if they climb over all the obstacles to get there. Reckless behavior is never considering the outcome. We never have anything in the bag anything can be taken away at any second. This is a prime fact of life. But we always know we can acheive if we have a strategy of getting there. Anything that works in the moment is what helps. So I encourage us all to take a chance on life and nothing ever holds us back 🙂
As we cross the seven seas,
We can survive indefinitely,
The longer we will thrive in deep,
Deeper waters,calming streams,
That combine birds that fly in skys,
Screaming greatness in our eyes,
As long as we can like surprise,
The joy will come back in our eyes,
And we will smirk and know,
It’s life
Things don’t always go as planned. This is a fact of life. However how many of us surround ourselves with detractors and then complain about how nothing goes right in our lives? Or how many of us complain about lack of time, when we procrastinated? Or how our lives lack meaning yet we squander foolish energy into being “accepted” by others? The truth is that these complaints are just worthless forms of self sabotage. It’s a waste of time and energy to do nothing with ones life. Just do what you can do for yourself, don’t complain and bash other people or even pat yourself on the back for doing the “right” thing. We all should be doing the right thing. It makes life run easier when we all chip in. So in the grand scheme of things we all go through it nobody has a right to complain, nobody’s that special doesn’t matter who you are. So take charge, don’t complain to everyone else about your “lack of motivation” (aka lazyness 🙂 Like the old saying goes build a bridge….
The road to truth ain’t paved with gold,
There ain’t no yellow bricks that shine bright within the mold,
Our intellects will second guess and while we try for bold,
Often times the smallest strides can cover more than throws,
Throwing all into ones life but trying to escape,
Thinking that your great escape derives from lack of faith,
Money leads to empty dreams without uplifting peace,
So look for opportunity the choice is to stay free
Im one of those people who does not like negativity around me. I used to embrace all that was miserable in life. To a certain extent those were the most incredible years of self discovery. But after growing up and seeing how severely misguided I was, I began to believe in something better. Mainly seeing how emotionally dependant on others for validation I had become, made me wake up. The older I get the less dependant I choose to live my life. Emotional independance is something many of us lack. I believe that is why many of us find ourselves in miserable situations. We have a false sense of need. The only things that one truly needs is faith, good family, and a career that you love. Friends, lovers they come and go. That foundation I mentioned that stays in place. Even for those who came from broken homes or who had less than stellar parents. It is better to appreciate and accept who you are by acknowledging where you came from than by building a bridge from that reality. If you don’t know where you came from you wont know where you are going. I’m happy to embrace change. It is always a beautiful thing. You don’t have to be friends,date, or be around anyone that you sincerely don’t like. That doesn’t make you a bad person or make you any less of an open minded person. However, you have to be vigilant and aware of people who are excessively needy or “drama queens”. The truth is we all fell into these categories at some point. The problem is many of us emotionally never graduate from middle school. Some of us carry grugdes that run deep. It’s a fact of life that people are going to be people. So make the choice of what kind of person are you going to be.
Poems from a Texan 